Hai ! Bertemu Kembali~ Hewhewhew

Assalamualaikum.. udah lama sih tidak mencoret.. hehe.. apabila kemalasan melanda diri ini bercampur pula dengan kebuzian dengan assignment + test +quiz membuatkan diri ini terlupa sejenak terhadap coretan ini.. Wah!gitu kau ayat.. Haha.. Now, its already in May.. only left with one month.. then I will be in 2nd year as UMP-ians.. I'm PROUD to be UMP-ians !hehehe.. kali ni entri aku berkisar mengenai SAHABAT~ Sahabat~~ perkenalan kami semasa minggu MINDS lg dh kukira agak bertuah.. dpt mengenali dirinya, sbg ank sabahan seorang yg snggup merantau demi mencari ilmu di bumi ALLAH yang luas ini cukup aku kagumi.. aku terbayangkan.. kalau aku dpt U jauh nun disana cmne? mampu ke bertahan? tgk diaorg balik pn dh berlinang air mata ni.. Kami sama2 berkenalan sbb kitaorg sama PA (penasihat akademik) start dpd that day, until last month.. why I said last month? because something happen to us.. It hurt me a lot.. It also affect my perfomance, my study, our relationship.. Disebabkan hanya kerana sebuah EGO, rosak segalanya.. mungkin aku sendiri pn ada silapnya.. Maaf diri ini masih lagi belum sempurna.. tp aku try utk memperbaiki diri ini.. bila kami bertiga dah tak bercakap, aku jadi tersepit.. aku tak tau mane nk pilih.. kwn2 aku ckp, "biarkanlah dia tu. cari kwn lain je. kalau dia taknak kwn dgn kau, biarkn aje. jgn smpai terjejas pelajaran kau." kami akan sama2 melalui 3thn lg di UMP nieh. boleh ke kalau tak bercakap bagai? yg paling aku terasa sampai aku take a decision untuk give her time to think what did she do is, she can say like this to me. "Erm, malaslah nk tegur." What?? Why.. it hurt me a lot.. really2 hurt me.. okey. kalau taknak tegur aku dah, aku hormat keputusan kau. You make a decision like that. you serve it. jahat kan aku ni? aku ni cume manusia biasa yg banyaka salah silap. aku ni cume seorang perempuan yang senang terhiris dgn kata2 seperti itu. apa point dia ckp mcm tu sbnrnye aku pn tak tau. since the day we met because meeting with our PA until last month, we are close. because of that, now we dont greet one of us. she doing her way, we doing our way. i'm sorry. i know i cant do like this. but, i'm a human too. if you have been hurt with us and need time to calm urself, it same for me. give me time to calm my self. what happen after this, i only put on ALLAH hands, He's the tight one that can decide for us. i miss you a lot actually. I silent doesnt mean that i mad at u, i hate u, i'm just giving myself time to forget what happen,to forgive myself with what i'm doing. I'm so sorry. I miss the time where we "gossip", laughing together.. really2 miss that time..